Being real, even when it’s hard

One of the most important things I try to do on my website is present the truth.

Today my truth is hard. It’s humiliating. It’s painful. And, this is what it looks like…

Photo on 6-29-15 at 11.58 AM #3

Not pretty. Not happy. Not peaceful or well-loved or anything positive.

That is the face of someone who just found out the man she has loved with her whole heart for 5 1/2 years cheated on her and lied to her. It happens to women all around the world every, single day. And, it happened to me about an hour ago.

Men cheat. Women cheat. Same goes for lying. But, both have disastrous consequences on the people for whom we care. And, that picture…that’s just the tip of the iceberg.

Now, I have such wonderful things to look forward to in the next few days. How long was he lying? Was it about everything? How in the world do I ever trust a man again? Why in the world would I want to?

Am I an idiot? I still cannot fathom the man I held up so high is at his core a liar and a cheater. It is baffling to me to even connect those words with my Lion.

Again, my website is real. It’s not meant to do anything other than give the women and men who read it a feeling that we are all in it together. So, I’m balancing the beauty of this wonderful life I live with the bitchslap I just received in a 3-sentence email.

Even though it’s hard.

I want all of you to know, it is another thing I will understand. Continue writing to me about anything. I guess, now, I can add “he cheated on me and wrote me an email” to that list.

5 comments

  1. Laura. It was great to see you at your Mom’s house.
    You might appreciate this, but when The Surpreme Court ruled, the first person I called was Linda for Richard’s phone number. I wanted to tell him how much I like Tim because I know how much they love each other.
    I’m so sorry about your situation. I know it hurts, but some day, the right man will come along that really loves you, and when that happens, he won’t even “think” about cheating on you. My
    words for this scum-bag is “Low Rent”. I’m so sorry because I can see how much you cared in your “selfie”.
    You know, you can always TEXT or heaven forbid call me 214-908-4763.

    You have a gift from God…your voice…all I can say is sing (shout) Carmen.

    Love you,
    Charles

  2. When i was in the Dutch commando’s we used to train with an British elite unit and their credo came to mind ‘who dares wins’. Its perfectly ok to feel shit and beaten for a while but them you must continue or characters like this will win and dominate your life. If that happens ‘they’ have won.
    So take the pain and sorrow but then get up use it to your advantage, store it in your mind and live your life again because this is what you owe towards yourself.

  3. Emotions are fleeting, though right now it may not feel that way. Embrace them, feel them through your core, and when you have allowed them to wash over you like a wave (or the entire ocean), rise up cleansed of the debris and see who you truly are. It stinks that anyone could be with so little integrity. He is a fool and a coward. But you(italicized) did not build a life on a lie. You are an amazing woman.

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